Hawaii trip part 2

Surprise trip to Hawaii

So travis has had a surprised tripped planned for me for about 2 months. I didn't find out were we were going till I got to the airport. Out of all the places I thought this would be the last place I would get to go. HAWAII !!!! I couldn't believe it. Here are some pics of our trip so far. We are staying on the beautiful island of Kauai. 

First day on the beach 

He loved throwing the sand 

At spouting horn

My two favorite boys 

Our view from our hotel room

Feeding the fish. Madden loved it 

Snow cone Hawaiian style 

Madden 17 Months & little cuteness

I cannot believe our little man is almost a year and half already. Time seriously flies by so fast. It's crazy. Halloween is almost here and the little guy is gonna be the cutest little monkey. He's not a huge fan of wearing his costume but he sure looks adorable in it. He's such a sweet little boy. It's been a rough few weeks with teething but for the most part he does pretty well. He has been obsessed with dancing lately. Anytime he hears music or his toys play music he starts dancing. It's the cutest thing. Also he has been saying whats that a lot and very curious about everything and copys a lot of what we say.


Age: 17 months

Weight: 21 lbs 

Height: 30 in.( as of last appt) 

Favorite food: Not eating much with teething:(

Favorite snack: Pretzels & Chips

Favorite toy: Garbage truck

Favorite activity: Playing outside & Dancing

Favorite song: pat a cake 

Favorite things to do: Loves to dance lately

Attached to: Binky & minky blanket

Words: momma, dadda, papa, doggy,sat(what's that), buh bye, thank you, baba(bottle) , night night, football, please, cat

Must have: binky, blanket & milk

Loves to: Dance

Teeth: 9 and 2 more working there way in

New things : Says please & cat, and loves giving the BEST kisses ever.He even makes the kissing noise and going muah.Ugh so adorable.

Goal this month: less bottle and more sippy. 

He has been obsessed with picking his toe jam lately. 

Some fun at cornbellys 

Loves his feet being tickled like his daddy

Hey everyone. I know it's been a whole since I've posted but I've been going through some pretty hard changes lately and I think its important to talk about it cause we women don't know how common it is to go through what I currently am Right now. The past few weeks I've been having low energy, not same appetite and have developed some anxiety which I have never had before. I've been to a few doctors and it seems that I have some post partum anxiety going on. I believe it all started a few weeks ago when I had a little episode of hypoglycemia and almost past out whole I was home alone with my little boy. Whole it was happening I started having a panic attack cause of the fear of leaving my son alone if I did pass out. It was a scary thing to go through. I believe that triggered it at first but I believe that stress of taking care of our son on my own majority of the time since my husband works a lot, me not taking care of myself the way i should be and just being completely run down and exhausted and it all added up and I think my body has jist finally realized it and has pit me in this post partum anxiety. 

It has been really hard for me especially taking care of madden while trying to get through this. My anxiety seems to be worse in the mornings when I know I'm going to home alone with madden a ll day. Its a very weird thing and hard to explain if you've never gone through something like this. It's not easy but I believe there is hope that I will get better and it will go away. 

I've been to my regular physican who said my serotonin levels were low and pit me in celexa to help raise them. I was only on those for a few days and I had some bad side effects and seemed to make my anxiety even worse. So that was about two weeks ago and she gave me Prozac to try and I haven't tried it yet. I am wanting to try to get through this in a more natural way first before I try another medicine. I wanted to know if any of you have gone through this and if so how have you dealt and gotten through it ? This has defiantly been the hardest thing I've gone through in my life. Not feong like yourself all the way and having anxiety which I've never experienced is very difficult.  I thought I would share my experience cause I feel it helps to talk about it and not keep it bottle up Inside. 

Anyways. Here are a few pics of the cute little guy. 

Maddens closet

It defiantly is feeling like fall here in Utah. I love fall. One of my favorite seasons. And I especially love it because I get to dress my little guy up in some adorable clothes. 

T-shirt= American appereal 

Jeans= old navy 

Sweater= target

Beanie= baby gap

Shoes=h&m